Day 511: What hours?

I totally just woke up to my nurse, Fe, pricking my finger, taking my vitals and giving me medications. Not weird at all....but I seriously thought it was 3am!! These past couple days I didn't realized how much i have been relying on morphine to get me through my pain that I might be addiced to it in some way. WHAT?! Even last night when Emily came down to visit with me, I was dozing on and off and today while Sarah waited for nurses to come, I was in a completely relaxed state of mind Constantine asking myself...did you just really say that? lol, I"m sure I sounded silly.


Oh the side effects.

So last night after the WORST day of my life, I managed to get myself up and be transportated to CT scan where they did a CT of my pancreas. When I asked the morning doctors about it, most of them looked dum founded and the typical "i'm not sure yet" answer of "We'll continue to monitor  your levels" came about and I"m back to square one. I had a pretty good bowel movement (considering that I haven't eaten in in the past 48 hours and that was a relief. I think it was all the SERILE water I had to drink right before the CT.

Today was once again an overall relaxing day. I din't really want visitors becase I just wanted to sleep but two ended up coming anyway, and I'm so happy they did.

I noticed that my hair has been coming out a LOT easier so today I told myself....Self, its a goodday to be bald. And I did it. Deontre (an old student of mine) came up and had no idea what hew as in for. Sarah Mae came up too and I don't think she expected it...I mean, it's not everyday someone says.....hey, shave my head. And today I just felt ready. I didn't have once ounce of emotion....almost it was like....okay you might as well get it done now so your hair can at least be fixed during bedride report or doctors rounds. I may get some reaction tomorrow. GOOD.''So for those of you who are sending me the typical, you look becautiful with or without your hair, it always grows back, it'll be back before you know it, people can't even tell if it's a wig....save it. It's soft of annoying. Now the first time....WHOLE different story. (check out that emotional whirlwind post.)

Well it's 9:18pm and my nurse heated me up some SOUP so I'm gonna go enjoy that and then SLEEP. I can't seem to find it when I need it. :)

xoxo

kim