I still can't believe I'm here.
I still can't believe that I have cancer. Again.
Like, what are the odds?
I wish I could have the same attitude and "not care" because I can get through this.
But the second go around is always harder. I don't want to lie, I have doubts.
Is my body strong enough to endure the beating again. I felt like I was still recovering.
ugh.
Anyways, sorry for the "late" blog update. I was TIRED this morning. I didn't get a very good sleep last night. I start my 1st 2 hour bag of chemo at 8:30 and finish it at 10:30. Then I switch to another 2 hour bag finishing up around a little past midnight depending how on top of their game my nurse is that night. So far, I've loved all my nurses....except one. She just didn't get my vibe but what can you do right? So basically, I slept all morning between the FOUR different doctor visits. I laid in bed as they talked to me with my sheet over my head because I just wasn't in the mood. lol. Then my nurse came back and I was ready to shower.
Showering is getting a little more difficult mainly because my hemoglobin is slowly decreasing everyday. I got my sheets changed to my bright pink ones and I like them because they're bright. Good thing it's dorm season. I got to get my paws on some zebra stripes now. :)
Well, the chemo taste is slowly creeping back into my mouth. Water is starting to taste funny and it's just an obnoxiously dry bland taste I can't get rid of. I'm trying to keep my mouth clean so I can avoid mouth sores at all costs but those are inevitable. And they suck.
My latest project....which if ANYONE can help me with this....is I'm trying to find someone (professional) to come in a give me a PEDICURE!! I usually get one before I go into the hospital because everyone looks at feet here and not only am I due for one...like yesterday, but I have to have one. Especially if I'm in here for 2 more weeks! :( So for all of you who often go to a nail salon please ask for me. And as an added bonus, I'll even pay for you to get one with me....because who goes to get pedicures alone? :)
Today I woke up wanting to go to school and teach my kids. I guess it's an urge I still have somewhere deep down in me. Kids are just so great. They have the funniest things to say at the most inappropriate times. And at the time, they drive you insane but sometimes its all you need to make your day. Here around adults....it's lame.
Okay one last thing before my hamburger I ordered 40 minutes ago gets here....The awesomest middle school counselor on the planet Ms. Curry has set up a Bone Marrow Matching Site where EVERYONE and ANYONE can get tested to see if they would be a match for me to get my transplant!!
We're going to hopefully have posters, signs (hopefully purple), and EVERYTHING set up at TAFT MIDDLE SCHOOL (the best middle school ever) on August 30, 2012 from 11:30 - 3:30 pm.
It should be a quick in and out procedure.....called a CHEEK SWAB. :) So no blood draw just to get tested. And if you're not a match for me, maybe you'll be a match for someone else. More details will follow but mark it in your calendars.....August 30th. :)
Also, people have been asking about visiting me and by all means come on! I don't do anything except sit in my room and watch people walk up and down the hall. I would prefer a text or message of some sort before you come because some days I'll feel like having contact with no one.
Also if you are still interested in donating blood in my name, make sure it goes through Oklahoma Blood Institute so I can get some credits to go towards my bill. Word is with a transplant, I'll need blood transfusions daily. :( If you need more information let me know and I'll be more than willing to share. :)
Okay well, I'm going to get myself up and use the restroom (TMI??) since I haven't went 100 times today already.
Have a good day and I'll write more later.
xoxo
Kim
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